In Mourning Yet Again

Surrounded now from all that brings

• Paperwork 
• Death Certificates 
• Coffin package deals 
• Mourning leaflets 
• Song books 
• Bibles 
• Photos 
• Last outfit worn to hospital 
• Personal effects from one room that was paid by the time etc 
• Other hospital supplies 

All donated used using and stored for moving North ... The clutter here still trickling away in the long wait for the Cremation ... so the farewells can take place ... 

And the overwhelming of more items into the muddle of coming back to life different again initially ... Which those outside the circle do not know that my leisure time was non existent and the anger directed at me even on the loss of my husband and the silence now ... Again ... 

I had it from all quarters ... No one would understand for nigh on two years we were hounded relentlessly instead of assisted and the wrong and the failing of putting someone in place before abruptly leaving for training in a time of year when people's minds are on the festivities and not covering all bases on night weekend and holiday cover let alone cover for staff change 

A lot was learnt by one agency on the end result of one death and the forgetten family ... And although that is good for those in the future 

For me I am xscarred where you cannot see ... And still to this day outside of the know and a little of the know ... the silent treatment speaks volumes ...