Not Just Christmas ... It is Remembering One December Day ... Past ...

When my husband was to pass away from us ... for now 

And despite the fact I have so much going on in my life right now ... time is set aside in this month for the day our life changed ...

Everyone was affected ... I have had messages of prayers, thoughts and love for this time, all while we get the preparations under way to spend time with our loved ones, if we have them ... over the festive period.

Despite all this and being unwell. I have done little bits here and there; despite the seasonal activities too, I have made plans for when people are back in the here and now. And not at their plans of getting gifts, food, the tree decorated and all that business depending what traditions etc are followed. 

I am tainted from my experience. I try not to remember people were elsewhere when no-one believed my hubby was slipping away ... 

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been a difficult one... keeping track of daily life is difficult enough without having to see a specialist and dealing with the past... 

the forthcoming two week period holiday time delays everything people are elsewhere presently ... just like the Summer months ... too busy to do things properly this time of year ...

this was partly why we had lack of duty of care ... and hubby was to pass away ... over the holidays 

wrong time for right care 

Illness; Elsewhere; and now the Festive Season ...

I have still being making plans to de-clutter ready for the return after treatment and what have you; ready for go. The visions I have had while I was really poorly in the Autumn to be put into action too...

Ideas too from being away from the environment.

And even this week ... sprucing up the place where I can ... Still tire easily ... and still thinking of things that can go etc ... 

All in all ... the bathroom I was thinking about too when I was away ... I can have my bathroom replaced ... and ease of access to do the works ... which is reviewed for another year ... to give me time and something to aim for when ready to do so ...

Lots of aims to aim for ... not to be aimless ... lost on the services ... keeping the decor ambiance and mould under control for a better quality of life and heeds my health ... which has suffered and has been exacerbated by my environment ... seeing as I have had the tests ...